Thursday, December 25, 2008
Thursday, December 11, 2008
Blessings of the Day: It was my first marathon but surely not my last! :)
Oh that how we both felt after the marathon
Saturday, November 29, 2008
Blessings of the Day: "Common Sense Granted to PY"I absolutely have no common sense knowing I shdn't jump and i still jump. Now my knee cap is running to the other side.. Need to be more disciplined in exercising- swimming & cycling. No more jogging :( Boo Hoo~ Hope i can finish the 10km "marathon" on the coming Sunday.
"Beg as loud as you can for good common sense. Search for wisdom as you would search for silver or hidden treasure. Then you will understand what it means to respect and to know the LORD God." ~ Proverbs 2:3-5
I am getting abit panicky these days - the recession, the work, the studies :(
In anyhow just before 23rd Dec, I had a list of things to complete and to pray about!
1) Project #1 = Client A to cooperate with me!! Argh~
2) Project #2 = Client B to cooperate with me also!!!! :S
3) Ad-Hoc #1 = Client C continue to make more changes and so i can earn more from u *evil laughter*
4) Ad-Hoc #2 = Cliend D Where Art Thou? Please come back from Bangkok :(
5) Projects Biddings to go through :)
1) Finish the rapid prototype and sent off for user testings.
2) Write 1st Paragraph - Introduction
1) Pot Luck Party = BBQ/Kimchi Chickeng Wings + Katang Salad
2) AP Lunch = Fish Pie? Meat Ball Pasta?? or BOTH??
3) Family Christmas Party = Menu Planning in progress
4) Post Christmas Party = ....
2008 December, may it be a fruitful and God honouring one :)
Wednesday, November 19, 2008
Sunday, November 09, 2008
Saturday, November 01, 2008
A Singaporean soldier was sent to Nepal to train with the Gurkhas to be paratroopers. One the first day of training, the instructor asked the Gurkhas and the Singaporean for volunteers to jump out of the plane. No Gurkhas put up their hands to volunteer. The Singaporean found it strange. These were the Gurkhas whose bravery were legendary and yet they didn’t dare to parachute out of a plane. The Singaporean thus decided to volunteer. The instructor seeing the Singaporean’s hand raised asked for more volunteers. Slowly, hesitantly, a few other Gurkhas raised their hands.The instructor was satisfied.
He then took out a parachute and said, “Each of you will be jumping out of the plane with this parachute”.
“Oh…we can use parachute, ” the Gurkhas started whispering among themselves.
This evening a few of us went to attend a church member's mom funeral wake who passed away peacefully in her sleep. This church member or couple is a very jovial couple and always come across very positive. It touches and surprises me that the strength like this wasn't easy especially at this difficult time. As we listened to her sharing how her mom enjoyed high tea just with the children and manage to spend some time with the grandchildren. She kept saying "My mother died as a happy woman. Eat her fav dim sum, dressed in her new and favourite blouse and even now in the coffin." Her husband did a few posters of photographs of the happy memories of the mother in law and her family members. As I looked, it strucked me this is how funeral should be. We should be reminded that our loved ones had once spent the happy times with us and yes we greived but learning to treasure even more for our love ones who are right beside us now and to draw the strengths of our love ones who left us and to pass on this strengths to the next generation.
As she lie in there, i saw the smile on her face. I knew she was really peaceful. I looked back that this year wasn't a easy time for myself and Kg. We both experienced lost of loved ones as well. Looking at the couple jovial and encouraging spirit reminded that the hand of God is indeed with them and her family members. It was something I need to learn from them - being positive and most importantly faithful.
As I returned home, the song 有一位神 just popped up in my head and kept replaying non stop. Reminding myself I will need to be faithful and believed that all things will work in His time.
Tuesday, October 28, 2008
Thursday, October 16, 2008
God loves you too.
Seriously I was very upset and of course I knew I could no longer depend on him. No point mopping or no point saying anything more. I took over the project. It took me around 10 hours to finish up the remaining 80% of his work and met the deadline on Monday afternoon.
This incident had brought back memories when I was staggering a full time job and while doing a free-lance project. I remembered most of my weekends and nights were burned off due to extra projects taken up. My social life was affected but not severely. Most importantly the amount of time to sleep was affected. But it was ok - yes I complained and grumbled. But I knew I was doing for a reason to fulfill my dream.
He was introduced by an ex-colleague of mine. He had been a great help and in fact it was a fantastic job done. I had expressed my deepest appreciation and often praised him and encouraged him. The way I handled him, frankly speaking Kg wasn't at least impressed with what I was doing. He felt I should have been stricter. I said - "Kg, he did a good job. I was strict and kind - i knew i was. When he had done right, i will praise him. When he done wrong, i will have to rebuke him. "
The 3rd and also the last project was the one that I witnessed the downturn of his attitude - which I had no idea why this was so. No reply and I often had to chase him down just to get the update of the job status. I was worried and frankly the darkest fear was He might just play me out anytime was hovering in my mind driving me nuts for weeks!
I had been praying for someone who can help me on a long term basis or better still established a good partnership so that I could recruit full time once I had stabilized. I was tapping on these part time folks to see their skills, job attitude and the character. I needed someone whom I could trust and work with. I wondered if I had expected too much. After all a free lancer don't get a lot of benefits isn't? I knew where he was coming from as I had been through that path before. But because a free lancer worked at his own flexible timing, that wasn't much you could control how this person work and perform. I had finally understood why some of the clients immediately rejected me upon learning I was a free lancer. I didn't understand why then. Now facing with this group of people, I had just to pray and God to point the right person to me whom I could trust.
Blessings of the Day
Grace was needed much earlier. Now moving forward, grace was needed even more from God. Wisdom too. In all circumstances, I had learnt to see His counsel and to walk in His direction not mine. I was glad my prayer was answered. The project was back on the timeline again.
Sunday, October 12, 2008
Blessings of the Day
(1) A wonderful retreat - I heart all my sisters.
(2) A wonderful reward - my tutorial teacher wrote me an encouraging card on my papers done so far and I was really thankful despite of the last min preparation each time i had to cramp through my reports.
(3) A wonderful LOVE - the Love of God never fails me. I need the grace ever more to go though this period. Thank you Father.
Am Feeling Currently:
Being emotional doesn't mean is all the negative thoughts and mood. It is a mixture of consists the good ones and bad ones. Thankfully the good ones are more than the bad ones.
But however when i let worries dwell too much, sometime the elements of worried can actually be more than the good ones which mine looked like this:
= + + + +
They said that 3 good moods can remove 1 mini bad mood...
which left me with :
= + + +
That's why I said i am emotional.
I need the grace grace grace ever more from God!
Wednesday, October 08, 2008
Blessings of the day: My 2nd assignment grades improved by 10 marks and secured a B+ for this assignment. 1 more coming back and then I will start my thesis on advertising. God help me!
Am feeling :
Barely enough 5 hrs of sleep last night due to debugging @ work. Its been a frustrating with one of the freelancers. I can never seem to find the right person to help me :(
I am still clocking a timing of 30 mins for 3.5 km. How am I going to run for Standard Chartered by Dec?
Saturday, October 04, 2008
Sunday, September 28, 2008
Saturday, September 20, 2008
Blessings of the Day: Had a good time catching up with Kg. Yes with him cos we haven been out to relax and chat for a very long time, i can't help by noticing that. A hectic year for me and him - in filled with good n bad with the latter seem more often. I hope he sleep well tonight after all the laughing we went thru :)
I can't help but to realize how life seem becoming abit more gloomy these days. It is constantly filled with lots of anxiety and fear. Sometime I have to ask myself time to time - why am i doing this? I felt alone sometimes and I desperately had cried to God many times asking Him what is His plan for me. Sometime I thought I might get the answer and sometime I actually miss the opportunity. Tell me God, had I been searching the wrong things at the wrong place?
I needed peace. I desperately needed the inner peace that God can give me to help me to understand. I read the bible diligently and hoping I can get something out of it. For the past few weeks, my emotions were running abit up and down like a roller coaster. I just don't know why. PMS? Can't be that long right? Sometimes when things got so heavy for me, i desperately just go to the park and run. Even when running, my head was still heavy with thoughts filling with the 5Ws in my head.
When things get tougher, do people really get tougher to go through the tougher process? Is it necessary? I had tried and by doing so by my own strength is impossible at all. I get even more tired in the process. Sometime I yearn to go to God and tell him " God, I give up... can You just spare me...."
I re-read my blog entries from 2005 onwards. Some articles amazed me, some do not, some seem childish to me, some was like - GOSH! Why ON EARTH I WRITE THIS KIND OF THING? Some reminded me of God's faithful love for me. Some were painful reminders of what I had done. One thing that is evident was the growth of my faith. I could see the faith in me growing very slowly but steadily all these years. Sometime I wondered how much but when I looked back 3 years, I could clearly see when I had cried out to God, God did hear me. He hears me in fact all the time.
It is a sweet assurance I got for spending hours re-reading my blog. No doubt, fears and anxiety still exists in my life right now even as I typed these words. At least I also learned that from past fears, God had nudge me closer to Him.
[as py stop typing, she was reminded 2 years ago in Anew, kwa kwa sang a beautiful song "be still my soul". She went to search the song and played and started to google for the lyrics]
Be still, my soul,
The Lord is on your side.
Bear patiently, the cross of grief or pain.
Leave to your God, to order and provide.
In every change He faithful will remain.
Be still, my soul,
Your best your heavenly friend,
Through thorny ways leads to a joyful end.
Be still, my soul,
Your God will undertake
To guide the future as he has the past.
Your hope, your confidence let nothing shake.
All now mysterious shall be bright at last.
Be still, my soul,
The waves and winds still know
His voice who ruled them while he lived below.
Be still, my soul,
Be still, my soul,
Thank you Father.
Friday, August 22, 2008
Blessings of the Day: Feeling quite good and healthy after exercising for about 3 weeks. I still fell sick though due to dehydration. Exercising is my top priority these days and I always look forward to a great time of sweating it out. Look more fit (at least when I stare into my reflection). Weather is super hot, got to really drink more water.Had the opportunity to go back to KL for a short break after 3 years since I visited the place. Surprise my memory serves me well and most of the time I can navigate the group around KL pretty well. Though is only 3D2N which only granted me 1.5 Day of shopping, it was a relaxing trip.
After 3 years I managed to try out the Aeroline which I missed the other time. The bus was not too bad and perhaps I thought I might have overrate it somehow. I was told 5 Stars would be a better choice of course more expensive. But the thought of the bus reached our hotel at the door step, the convenience was too good to be resisted. ConcordeHotel was one of my selected choice followed by Corus. However location won us over. Standard did drop compare to the other time when I stayed. Particularly the service was terrible but I was reminded to be patient and treat the staffs with patience. Both left and right the corus folks were kena scolded by of course I supposed Singaporeans (Since it was national weekend). My heart nearly dropped when they almost couldn't find my bookings. Again patience and sincerity was the key to receive good service. The guy named Abe who served us was really kind enough and I thought how maybe he seen his other colleagues got slashing from the customers was probably thanking in his heart he got such a nice customer like me. Haha. The room arrangements took abit more time than expected, but at least I was grateful he was willingly to meet my minimum requirements. Anything else extras were bonuses and I guess I too must appreciate his hard work. Thanks Abe!
We went to Suria KLCC for first thing to get - A&Ws. Chicken Wings were soso, Onion Rings were HUMONGOUS! Waffles were good (too bad I didn't 1 for myself), Root Beers were my top favourite.
After that the group split up and agreed to come back by dinner time. Kg and I roamed around and I could see he was pretty excited to be in KL. I got myself a nice basic tee from MNG. Then I somehow got abit overheated and became very thirsty. Kept flying to Cold Storage to buy mineral water. I drank at least 3 bottles in 2 hours I thought. Got myself cinnamon buns since Saints Cinnamon extinct in Singapore. What else did we do? We walked for at least 2.5 hours before dinner time strikes.
After doing some groundwork online, I brought the group to Mdm Kwan for dinner. Like me, they all seem to be overheated too and ordered our own individual food. The food were really good btw. I got myself chicken rice - too bad for the small portion otherwise it was excellent! Kg got himself dumpling soups and it was really good. All local food by Mdm Kwan were really good. Although pricey but at least I knew we were eating authentic Malaysian food.
My chicken Rice
Jem & Kel - some kind of spicy noodles.. can't remember...
Fried Guo Tiao - KK's
The healthy folks - KG & Mandy's order
We caught a 3D movie "Journey to the Center of the Earth". It was an interesting show and I thought it was better than "Mummy 3" Well it was better because at least Brendan Fraser was performing more in "Journey" than in "Mummy" plus it was a 3D show. It cost us RM17 to catch this show. Pricey again - but worth it.
Next morning, we head to opposite coffeeshop to have our first local breakfast. We had their teh or teh tarik (Don't look like teh tarik to me though cos it should have foam but none found). A malay young guy took our orders but due to poor communication, he nearly got our order wrong. I might end up having 4 marsala thosai. The breakfast was filling for some. Their local mee rebus were different from SG and the thosai as well. Mandy got a good choice of Mee Goreng. The breakfast for 6 of us came up to around RM35+ plus. Quite affordable.
Since @ KLCC, the group didn't really get to shop much, I brought them to Bukit Bintang. Mandy made quite a good planning that we would shop at Times Square and meet up for lunch before we all proceed to Sungei Wang and BB Plaza. Hoho I went mad at Times Square cos I got a pair of sandals, beach shorts, a Body Glove polo tee and work dress from G200 @ 70% OFF! I always thought Times Square would be like another Suntec City as this was what I saw the last time round. Hurray to Mandy.
@ Lunch time, the group looked quite tired from all the walking and plus sadly we did not find the mini lobster noodles shop and the food center that was recommended was not really looking good and appealing. It looks old and most of the shops were closed. So based on one of my friend blog, we tried out Mdm Wang @ Sungei Wang. Initially Jem wanted to eat Japanese food but the teppanyaki didn't quite look appealing and the customers also looked bored in the shop. So we moved to Mdm Wong's cafe instead.
Jem's Order - mei qai kou rou
My teh - nice cup
Kel's order - cant remember the name again...
Mandy's rendang order.
That's mine - stired fried seafood udon
KK's order. I cant remember also.. lol What that?
Similar to Mdm Kwan, they served Malaysian authentic food. I ordered stirred fried udon. It was good and cheap to eat there. Then after we shopped more and actually both Kg and myself was abit overwhelmed by all the mini shops. It was like forever you could never finish shopping in Sungei Wang. As SW and Bukit Bintang Plaza was linked we checked out the other building.
Surprisingly, there weren't much stuffs either. Just about to give up and returned to the mini maze of shops, we suddenly found this very nicely bright and open spaced .... FISH SPA! Kg and I wanted to try foot massage but we couldn't found any. Most looked like "black shops" to us. Haha, at least BB Fish Spa looked professional and you could see exactly who are the people using the fish spa. It resembled like a Japanese room and it was surrounded with a 50cm deep water filled with fishes or guppies of course. Kg was surprisingly ONz all of the sudden and said OKOK we go try together! Paid RM38 for 30 mins each pax. I thought it was all in the name of the fun experience plus is in KL! How cool was that! So we washed our smelly feet in case the poor fishes were dead in our feet. (haha, you get my joke? No? erm nvm)Seriously when i saw all the fishes - i WAS CHICKENED OUT! I took my own sweet time to insert my pig trotters in. Most of the fishes would usually swim away first. I got really freaked out whenever the fishes came near me. The fishes were not really guppies size at all. They were as long as mine last finger as fat as my thumb. Kg was quite excited and just put them in. And the next thing........
I think you got to watch the video and you know what I mean... lol cos you got to experience "LIVE" since you were not there like me. I tried to add subtitles in to let you see... give me maybe about 1 working week to upload the video up. haha..
The "pathetic" look on my face. I was trying hard not to laugh so much. Kg was more relaxed after his torture.
So it took me at least 15 mins to laugh finish and settled down. By the time I thought there were at least 50 fishes each chewing my foot dead skins away. It looked very very gross seriously but FUN at the same time! The business quite easy to survive leh. No need to buy fish food just give them eat smelly feet. Haha. By the end of the fish spa, Kg kept saying OHHH looked how white my feet had become.. Hmmmm I don't know but I guessed it looked smoother after all. What a fishy experience.
Next we met up and head to Chinatown. I was quite disappointed with the chinatown trip. First the gui lin gao that I had 3 years back - standard dropped slightly. That wasn't the main disappointment for me at least. It was a Chinese confectionery shop in Chinatown. Anyway when I returned from KL, I was greatly upset (and even had a nightmare about it [why must I always have nightmare whenever i go overseas]) and wrote a review at Tripadvisor.com. So you can read the not so nice review over there instead of my blog. So after getting all the local food products, we returned back to KLCC for dinner since KK wasn't feeling too well and plus the group was feeling abit uncomfortable. Chinatown seem to become slightly more messy compare the last time. Just before sunset, we went back.
During the afternoon, we couldn't get our stomach filled with Japanese food, we had dinner @ Sake Sushi instead. Sake was slightly cheaper in KL than in SG. For the first time I ordered Salmon Don. Friends who knew I don't particular like sashimi. What I liked was the fragrant vinegar japanese rice. I thought I could have 2 bowls of the rice and would return feeling contented. hehehe.
The next day just before we set off back, we had breakfast at the same coffeeshop again. This time we ordered their prata too. THEIR PRATA SO NICE!!!! I liked!!!! It was so different from SG. Their plain prata were "teared" up before serving. The best thing was it was sweet and I could eat it plain without sugar. I also had bee hoon goreng. *Drools even when I think of it now*
Drool My BEEHOON GORENG!!!!
Gorsong Roti Drools X 10
Tuesday, August 19, 2008
Just want to express in chinese. haha
But i guess is the good kind of tired - the fruitful and contented type. Can't complain right?
Quote Kwa Kwa "Py, you'll soon be missing your studies days when it is officially over"
The Lord is with me :) I know that for sure.
but those who hope in the LORD
will renew their strength.
They will soar on wings like eagles;
they will run and not grow weary,
they will walk and not be faint.
Tuesday, July 29, 2008
Blessings of the Day: I OFFICIALLY DECLARED I HAVE NO WRITTEN EXAMS FOR MY FINAL YEAR! YES!!!!!I will be signing up for the Standard Chartered Singapore Run 2008 on the 7th December 2008, Sunday.
I am so excited! Anyone want to join me and Kg?
I am so excited number #2 - I have looked up on the internet to find a program that can train me up to run my very first 10km marathon. Guess what I found this >> http://www.health24.com/
I am so excited number #3 - I did my Day 1 first training yesterday morning. I was SO SO SO REFRESHED! Here is a peak of what happening to this week schedule.
- Total Time: 26 mins
- Walk 3min(warm-up), (Run 1min, Walk 1min) x10, Walk 3min(cool-down)
- Total Time: 26 mins
- Walk 3min(warm-up), (Run 1min, Walk 1min) x10, Walk 3min(cool-down)
- Total Time: 31 mins
- Walk 3min(warm-up), (Run 1.5min, Walk 1.5min) x5, (Run 1min, Walk 1min) x5, Walk 3min(cool-down)
- Total Time: 32 mins
- Walk 3min(warm-up), (Run 2min, Walk 2min) x4, (Run 1 min, Walk 1 min) x5, Walk 3min(cool-down)
Day 7 - Rest
With this program, I will be trained and can complete 10km in less than 60 mins which i think is very good and I know I can achieve that. Cos when I didn't train, JP Morgan Corporate 5km run was clocked around 55 mins. Effectively I may lose 3kg end of the year. MUAHAHAHAHA
This is a great start! I haven't felt good for such a long time :)
Sings: Heaven is a wonderful place, Filled with Glory and Grace, I want to see my Saviour's Face, Heaven is a wonderful place
Don't asked me... i suddenly feel like singing that song.
Thursday, July 24, 2008
Blessings of the Day: Feeling Spiritually Refreshed Renewed
It had been such a long time since I was touched and healed by the Holy Spirit. The feeling was amazing. I shalln't focus on my personal problems but how God had led me through in this amazing time of healing.
On last Sunday during church, there were announcements on the Wholistic Christian Counselling Conference in Asia 2008 which will be at Faith Methodist Church for 3 nights. I didn't really take note but one particularly caught my attention - Experiencing God Through Times of Change. I thought that was interesting but it was abit of travelling distance from North to West and plus I did not know any of the speakers.
On Monday afternoon, Ray messaged and told us to go for the 2nd night which was the one i mentioned earlier. But on Tuesday I was heading to JB and I wasn't too sure I was be able to be back on time. So finally I decided to give a miss. I felt a pinch of sadness when the girls messaged that night me how wonderful the speaker was that night sharing on the topic.
Weiggy first messaged me to attend the last night of WCCC. She was raving this is her new idol saying this speaker was term as the Love Doctor in Asia. Next Mandy again messaged me and told me to go for the last night which titled - Journey to Intimacy. Seriously I wasn't too interested to go. So when Mandy expressed her desire to attend the conference instead of HQ event. I told her I don't mind going cos I think Kovan was nearer. Who knows, Jem messaged said she needed to take care of her mom and she will be skipping the seminar and go for the HQ event and would be easier when she returned home. Finally a few more exchanges of sms - I was thrown at this question - "PY are you coming anot?"
Me ? - No reply. Went to sleep
Next day, in the morning 9am+, I got another message from Mandy again - "Hope you can come tonight. Its at commonwealth. Its refreshing .."
Me ? - Woke up and go to work. (yes i wake up at 9am+ and work at 9am+)
After lunch time - "Py, u not coming tonight ar?"
Ok i Finally replied - "Coming Coming Coming Coming :)"
That evening when I reached, I was greeted by the beautiful worship led by Convenant EFC. The worship was led by their Pastor Fabian. The prayers and the words of the songs ministered deep down in my heart. It was a wonderful time of assurance from God. I hadn't felt like this for a very long time. Deep in my heart, every word just answers all doubts and questions.
Next Dr Huang was introduced as the speaker for the evening. He came across as a very humble man and a hidden humour. For the next 2.5 hours, I was paying full 100% attention and writing furiously the notes into my phone. The congregation was fully engaged by his teachings. I certainly have a fruitful time. It is more than just learning men are from mars and women are from venus. It is the art of the love language that most of us couples or even singles fail to grasp it properly. Getting into paradox fightings were meaningless.
When I returned home that night, I still looked at my phone notes. I slowly realized that I hadn't been supporting him well enough. I called him up and apologized for the nonsences that He had to face from me. I too recognize the efforts that he had been trying to put in to pay his attention for me. It hadn't been an easy time for us either. It was so much and too overwhealming many unexpected events had happened and we constantly snapped at each other non stop. That night, we talked for 2 hours sharing and talking what I had learn from Dr Huang's seminar. It was a certainly a time of healing not only for myself and for him as well.
It was really a blessing to be able to listen what Dr Huang had taught us. So ... Thanks Weiggy and Mandy for asking me to go :)
Wednesday, July 23, 2008
Blessings of the Day: I praise you because I am fearfully and wonderfully made; your works are wonderful, I know that full well. - Psalm 139:14
Colossians 1:9 - 14
9For this reason, since the day we heard about you, we have not stopped praying for you and asking God to fill you with the knowledge of his will through all spiritual wisdom and understanding. 10And we pray this in order that you may live a life worthy of the Lord and may please him in every way: bearing fruit in every good work, growing in the knowledge of God, 11being strengthened with all power according to his glorious might so that you may have great endurance and patience, and joyfully 12giving thanks to the Father, who has qualified you to share in the inheritance of the saints in the kingdom of light. 13For he has rescued us from the dominion of darkness and brought us into the kingdom of the Son he loves, 14in whom we have redemption, the forgiveness of sins.
1 Timothy 4
Instructions to Timothy
1The Spirit clearly says that in later times some will abandon the faith and follow deceiving spirits and things taught by demons. 2Such teachings come through hypocritical liars, whose consciences have been seared as with a hot iron. 3They forbid people to marry and order them to abstain from certain foods, which God created to be received with thanksgiving by those who believe and who know the truth. 4For everything God created is good, and nothing is to be rejected if it is received with thanksgiving, 5because it is consecrated by the word of God and prayer. 6If you point these things out to the brothers, you will be a good minister of Christ Jesus, brought up in the truths of the faith and of the good teaching that you have followed. 7Have nothing to do with godless myths and old wives' tales; rather, train yourself to be godly. 8For physical training is of some value, but godliness has value for all things, holding promise for both the present life and the life to come. 9This is a trustworthy saying that deserves full acceptance 10(and for this we labor and strive), that we have put our hope in the living God, who is the Savior of all men, and especially of those who believe. 11Command and teach these things. 12Don't let anyone look down on you because you are young, but set an example for the believers in speech, in life, in love, in faith and in purity. 13Until I come, devote yourself to the public reading of Scripture, to preaching and to teaching. 14Do not neglect your gift, which was given you through a prophetic message when the body of elders laid their hands on you. 15Be diligent in these matters; give yourself wholly to them, so that everyone may see your progress. 16Watch your life and doctrine closely. Persevere in them, because if you do, you will save both yourself and your hearers.