Wednesday, April 26, 2006



Been eating non stop... like after a heavy dinner, i can still proceed to have fruit tarts and 2 cups of coffee during tea break in school or help myself with 2 pieces of coffee swiss roll stuffs with lots of cream and chocolate chips.

I know something is wrong with me. i been eating like non stop ... I often find myself going to the coffeeshop and buy $1 fries and eat happily. Cos first is cheap and more compared to Macdonald. Then will eat sweet things, spicy things, salty things :S I am always hungry after working very hard at work or in school. Probably thinking that i deserved a reward - FOOD reward so i can make myself a happy girl. Or when i am sad with my client, family or study, i also turn to food. Either ice-cream or the $1 fries again :S for comfort and then when i am happy i go back to work again. Keep having the impression that when i work too hard, my fats are burned away so can eat more food.

I did some research on cravings & stress and found these:

Remember, the brain seeks balance. It does not want to feel stressed, blue, or guilty. It immediately looks for pleasure and balance from the things that you have trained it to seek when negative emotions and stressors surface.

Stress, fear, anger, and anxiety can increase a transmitter called neuropeptide Y. This neurotransmitter can significantly increase carbohydrate cravings.

Stress is also associated with low serotonin levels, which can also lead to carbohydrate cravings to boost serotonin.

Depression and the blues are associated with suppressed serotonin levels. Feeling down can affect your desire for carbohydrates to boost these levels.

Feelings of guilt and low self-esteem have a strong connection to increased cravings. Low self-esteem is associated with low serotonin levels.

I better start to exercise when i have cravings again. I think i will return to my secondary school 60kg weight in few months's time if i continue "rewarding" myself.

No snacking & makan = Save more $. Quick think of the amount of $ u are saving.

Typical day on average spending:
$1 fries
$1 Sweet drinks
$2 Old Chang Kee
= $4

1 week = $4 * 7 = $28
1 month = $28 * 4 = $112
1 Year = $1344 (+++ if i continue eating...)

I CAN GO holiday in Aussie every YEAR!

Ok no more eating and snacking anymore


I am going to fail

After flipping through my past year papers, I realize I got chunks to memorize and no wonder the failure rate was so high last year. 15 students took this module and end up 11 students drop out of the course and 4 took the paper and 2 passed only. When i look through the paper, i am shock cos they test things that are not found in my notes. With sketching to be tested during my paper, my lecturer only took 15 mins to teach and then hand us a DVD to tell us to figure out ourselves.

Tell me what to do?! With my exam due on last week of May, i have about 7 chapters worth of design techniques to memorize?!

Absolutely crazy. The module which i look forward the most when i first started this is ending up to be my achilles heel!

Thursday, April 20, 2006


i am so tired.....

Save me!

Monday, April 03, 2006

Home cooked Junk Food

Oh yes... yummy burger.. still have room for improvement for sure...

Home cooked Junk food cure the soul :) haha

My 2nd sister was watching Da Chang Jin.... each time the music played while the "Shang Gong" are cooking in the palace kitchen, I seem to be chopping/cooking/stirring faster than before....

Lu Shang Gong presenting the Imperial Burger to the King... ohhwahahhahahahaha ....