I am coming into the heart and soul of Vietnam - Ho Chin Minh!
Tuesday, October 28, 2008
Thursday, October 16, 2008
The "Rehearsal"
I felt I was going through a rehearsal - I wasn't expecting since it was a direct honours program.
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My parents were proud of me that I had finally grown up *smile*
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Strangely enough, in the midst of the joy.... or maybe after they went home first leaving me and kg behind to take more photos... my heart was thinking of something else instead. What i really want them to see is how Christ's love had touched my life all these years. My desires to share the Christ love is equally as how much I desired to earn my degree to make them proud. Maybe more. Today in my heart just ring these words...I wanted very much to tell them:
God loves you too.
Thanks Dad and Mom - I will work hard for my final year and most importantly I'll pray that God's love will come into your lives. I pray your hearts will be touched just like how God touched my life 9 years ago. Just had how God open this door to me return to studies. I know one day God will open your doors for me to share the love of Christ to you!
study hard = work hard = pray hard
next year Oct 2009 - Here i come again
Why Grace was Needed Earlier
On Sunday evening 7.30pm, he called me and told me he couldn't do it anymore.
Seriously I was very upset and of course I knew I could no longer depend on him. No point mopping or no point saying anything more. I took over the project. It took me around 10 hours to finish up the remaining 80% of his work and met the deadline on Monday afternoon.
This incident had brought back memories when I was staggering a full time job and while doing a free-lance project. I remembered most of my weekends and nights were burned off due to extra projects taken up. My social life was affected but not severely. Most importantly the amount of time to sleep was affected. But it was ok - yes I complained and grumbled. But I knew I was doing for a reason to fulfill my dream.
He was introduced by an ex-colleague of mine. He had been a great help and in fact it was a fantastic job done. I had expressed my deepest appreciation and often praised him and encouraged him. The way I handled him, frankly speaking Kg wasn't at least impressed with what I was doing. He felt I should have been stricter. I said - "Kg, he did a good job. I was strict and kind - i knew i was. When he had done right, i will praise him. When he done wrong, i will have to rebuke him. "
The 3rd and also the last project was the one that I witnessed the downturn of his attitude - which I had no idea why this was so. No reply and I often had to chase him down just to get the update of the job status. I was worried and frankly the darkest fear was He might just play me out anytime was hovering in my mind driving me nuts for weeks!
I had been praying for someone who can help me on a long term basis or better still established a good partnership so that I could recruit full time once I had stabilized. I was tapping on these part time folks to see their skills, job attitude and the character. I needed someone whom I could trust and work with. I wondered if I had expected too much. After all a free lancer don't get a lot of benefits isn't? I knew where he was coming from as I had been through that path before. But because a free lancer worked at his own flexible timing, that wasn't much you could control how this person work and perform. I had finally understood why some of the clients immediately rejected me upon learning I was a free lancer. I didn't understand why then. Now facing with this group of people, I had just to pray and God to point the right person to me whom I could trust.
Seriously I was very upset and of course I knew I could no longer depend on him. No point mopping or no point saying anything more. I took over the project. It took me around 10 hours to finish up the remaining 80% of his work and met the deadline on Monday afternoon.
This incident had brought back memories when I was staggering a full time job and while doing a free-lance project. I remembered most of my weekends and nights were burned off due to extra projects taken up. My social life was affected but not severely. Most importantly the amount of time to sleep was affected. But it was ok - yes I complained and grumbled. But I knew I was doing for a reason to fulfill my dream.
He was introduced by an ex-colleague of mine. He had been a great help and in fact it was a fantastic job done. I had expressed my deepest appreciation and often praised him and encouraged him. The way I handled him, frankly speaking Kg wasn't at least impressed with what I was doing. He felt I should have been stricter. I said - "Kg, he did a good job. I was strict and kind - i knew i was. When he had done right, i will praise him. When he done wrong, i will have to rebuke him. "
The 3rd and also the last project was the one that I witnessed the downturn of his attitude - which I had no idea why this was so. No reply and I often had to chase him down just to get the update of the job status. I was worried and frankly the darkest fear was He might just play me out anytime was hovering in my mind driving me nuts for weeks!
I had been praying for someone who can help me on a long term basis or better still established a good partnership so that I could recruit full time once I had stabilized. I was tapping on these part time folks to see their skills, job attitude and the character. I needed someone whom I could trust and work with. I wondered if I had expected too much. After all a free lancer don't get a lot of benefits isn't? I knew where he was coming from as I had been through that path before. But because a free lancer worked at his own flexible timing, that wasn't much you could control how this person work and perform. I had finally understood why some of the clients immediately rejected me upon learning I was a free lancer. I didn't understand why then. Now facing with this group of people, I had just to pray and God to point the right person to me whom I could trust.
Blessings of the Day
Grace was needed much earlier. Now moving forward, grace was needed even more from God. Wisdom too. In all circumstances, I had learnt to see His counsel and to walk in His direction not mine. I was glad my prayer was answered. The project was back on the timeline again.
Sunday, October 12, 2008
Multiple Thoughts
Blessings of the Day
(1) A wonderful retreat - I heart all my sisters.
(2) A wonderful reward - my tutorial teacher wrote me an encouraging card on my papers done so far and I was really thankful despite of the last min preparation each time i had to cramp through my reports.
(3) A wonderful LOVE - the Love of God never fails me. I need the grace ever more to go though this period. Thank you Father.
Am Feeling Currently:
Being emotional doesn't mean is all the negative thoughts and mood. It is a mixture of consists the good ones and bad ones. Thankfully the good ones are more than the bad ones.
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But however when i let worries dwell too much, sometime the elements of worried can actually be more than the good ones which mine looked like this:
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They said that 3 good moods can remove 1 mini bad mood...
which left me with :
= + + + That's why I said i am emotional.
I need the grace grace grace ever more from God!
Wednesday, October 08, 2008
Random-blings
Blessings of the day: My 2nd assignment grades improved by 10 marks and secured a B+ for this assignment. 1 more coming back and then I will start my thesis on advertising. God help me!
Am feeling :
Barely enough 5 hrs of sleep last night due to debugging @ work. Its been a frustrating with one of the freelancers. I can never seem to find the right person to help me :(
I am still clocking a timing of 30 mins for 3.5 km. How am I going to run for Standard Chartered by Dec?
Saturday, October 04, 2008
Looking Up
When the things around you make you want to hide,
remember God gave hope to keep a smile inside!
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